Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
POLAR
I feel euphoric when I am North
Everything is easy and my brilliance comes forth
I know I will accomplish anything with ease,
Nothing can stop me, and that is the tease.
My aura of confidencs attracts many people to me,
At first,
Then something changes, and my actions become frenzied,
My brilliance is cursed.
Those same people cease to cheer,
I become too easily excitable,
Their unease turns to fear,
any opposition I meet I deem to be fighable.
Then comes the change,
Sometimes slowly,
My mind turns south,
my thouughts turn lowly,
My high minded tasks are only halfway done
My thoughts turn dark, I just want to run.
Or lay in bed.
Sometimes I wish I were dead.
What keeps me going while in this state,
Is the knowledge,
That returning back North is my certain fate.
I feel euphoric when I am North
Everything is easy and my brilliance comes forth
I know I will accomplish anything with ease,
Nothing can stop me, and that is the tease.
My aura of confidencs attracts many people to me,
At first,
Then something changes, and my actions become frenzied,
My brilliance is cursed.
Those same people cease to cheer,
I become too easily excitable,
Their unease turns to fear,
any opposition I meet I deem to be fighable.
Then comes the change,
Sometimes slowly,
My mind turns south,
my thouughts turn lowly,
My high minded tasks are only halfway done
My thoughts turn dark, I just want to run.
Or lay in bed.
Sometimes I wish I were dead.
What keeps me going while in this state,
Is the knowledge,
That returning back North is my certain fate.
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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I gave my 2 week notice last Friday 13th. Now to join you fine people in a life of leisure and nothing else to do but to look out for myself....is it just me or does that sound pretty boring? My goal was to live to retire and I guess having to take early retirement because of health reasons wasn't exactly the way I had planned things. I just can't stay in that building that is reeking mildew...
bravo.
You know that some scientists speculate that the ice age was caused by a great pole shift. That the earth actually shifted on its own axis. Just think if that happened in our lifetime. Our brains might even out and tall the normal people would go crazy! Ha Ha, the meek shall inhereit the earth!
Beautiful poem. Dont stop writing.
it reminds me of how exhausting and baffling this disorder is .. but it cannot take our creativity away can it.??!.