FUCK!!!!!!!! I'm sick and tired of being chemically and forcefully restrained for fear of what others will think or what it looks like. I need a goddamn life, im fucking pathetic, i cant even move on, im still the same that ive always been and i always will be because of this stupid fucking disease that has always held me back no matter what I do or how hard I try. Everyone else around me just moves on while i stay the same, year after year, all the same shit, the snow comes and goes and then so does spring and then summer still nothing to really live for or be proud about, just the same old screw up that dropped out of high school, had a child young, was picked on by her own family on top of being harassed distastefully and mocked continually by society, who dont understand what its like to live this way, to be fucking able bodied yet your mind is numb and cracked in such a way that it paralyzes you and makes you alienate anything or anyone good that ever happens
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