As of right now I am so manic that I can hardly stand it. I am completely reorganized my closet and I have now started with my desk even though I know nothing is wrong with it. It is like I am becoming ODC. It is driving me nuts. I cant sleep and my hand will not stop trembling it is so bad that I can hardly hold a glass of water to get a drink I feel like I am really a crazy person I have been shopping all day I have been to Walmart 3 times just to spend money this comes with bipolar according to my psychiatrist. I close my eyes to fall asleep but I cant I am going insane. I am honestly to the point that I think that I need to check myself into a hospital. My anxiety is so bad and I am now such a high that I feel Like cutting is the only thing that I can do to make myself feel better. But as many of you know you promise someone that you will not do it I just hate to disappoint that person but I am literally dieing to cut.
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