I will try and make this brief...apologies if I don't. My beautiful, sensitive, funny and intelligent son was just diagnosed as Bi-polar this evening. We recently had a difficult long distance move due to a job change. He was being the most positive trying to make everyone (bro. & sis.) else feel better about it. Had several hallucinating seizures when he was around 9 y/o. Then once he started middle school became more & more depressed. Always been a dream, child. Just sarcastic enough to love, and warm and witty enough to cherish. He has talked in the past about seeing things, paranoia and extreme interest in paranormal (?), meditation, etc. I supported his different interests. We can talk and are very close. His dad and I have been happily married for 20 yr. No trauma. After the move he tried pot, again didn't stress too bad but did explain due to his bio-chemistry make-up not a good idea and we would help him thru. Started cycling more and more. Knew he had highs and lows before but was able to keep up grades, friends, etc. Admitted to cutting himself and suicidal thoughts. Upon his agreement was admitted to Psych. Eval. where he was diagnosed w/ ADD severe depression and now evolved to Bi-polor. This sweet guy is trying so hard and has so much guilt about how it's effecting everyone else. We've tried to explain no worries we take care of it now, group counseling, private counseling, meds. and you monitor it. Better now than letting it get way out of control. My heart aches for him. Can it happen this fast, spiraling out of control. Went from no problems to major ups & downs, picking cigarettes off the ground to smoke and sneaking 5 aspirin out of the cabinet to take cuz it said "pain reliever". He seems soooo desperate...I am too. We're supporting him 100% with school work, understanding, etc.
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