I am extremely depressed again/still today. I've been crying all day and thinking of ways to injure myself so I can go to the hospital and just be around people, get some attention. I just forced myself to clean my apartment. After I got it done I thought to myself there now if emergeny worker have to come in here it won't be a mess. What the hell/where did that come from. I just need to hang in there. Wednsday I see my therapist hopefully that will help me feel better.
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