im 16.im bi.and i have a gf that is great..shes so great.but im still 16 i mean i dnt even understand being bipolar so how can i explain it to others..



when im (what i call) "bipolar" mad i dnt wana be touched or i will hit someone.

when im "bipolar" sad....

ok kno what..iono.they are to similar but still too different..

but i tell her im not upset w her..its just random moods and she still thinks its her..

well i guess all i can do is tell her its not her and its just up to her to believe me..

its funny tho.kinda.its like i can feel my moodswings (thank god they r not hour to hour anymore) but i cant stop them i just let them come.. and after im depressed.spazing out.soon after im s ooo happy..hyper to the point it annoys people..lol..but i tell them to get over it bc hell..atleast im happy..

i just went so many months depressed b4 my big break down when i went in bethesda i just cant stand to feel that way...but i hate being really mad bc i just hate who i am..the mean crule random thoughts i have...its crazy..and it makes me cry too..for hating who i am.and screaming in my head please steph stop.think about it all..if i acted on any of this or if anyone knew..they would think im crazy and not talk to me..iono



well shit now im upset....