well some of you know that last Monday I overdosed again was put in critical care until late monday night then was transferred to the psych ward. I got out yesterday and so far I am doing ok. Had my pdoc appt. today, he decided to increase my dose of lamictal. i told him I am so sick of being on this stupid roller coaster and I just don't wanna deal with it. I asked him if it ever gets better, he said it will with time and adjustments. I told him my moods are a little better but the depression is what I have the most problems with. so, we increased the lamictal and if I am still having depression problems then he will add another anti depressant. But man I am so sick of being this way. I am sure everyone feels this way I just need to vent. I hate this stupid disorder....its just so totally unfair!!! but I just feel like I am starting from square one all over again with all the med adjustments and being in the hospital. Plus, all the bad things I did in my many episodes lately I basically have to just start my life all over again and try and do things right this time....I almost lost everything.
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