Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I guess I am looking for encoragement...
I feel very scared of taking this big step in my life, for the first time I will be on my own, no boyfriend, no husband, no friends living near me.
I need to feel in charge of my life for the first time, I can't live with the thought of depending on people for my happines and well being. I made the mistake of staying married because I was affraid of been alone and sick. Now my divorce is almost finalised.
I searched for the perfect place to live and I found it, I visited and I've fallen in love with the city. It is safe, young, it has great hospitals, great weather, it is a small city but close to four major cities. It is a perfect place for me.
Now my fears, my dream city is located far from Florida (where I live). I dont know anyone there, no doctors, no friends, no family, no neighbors, not even the roads.
I will hate myself forever if I have to depend on someone to take care of me. I've been in treatment for my disorder for only 1 year, and I am still struggling, but I have a lot ambition to live a healthy life.
My whole family lives in Brazil, and they already made clear if I get too sick I would became a "burden" to the family.I do have some supporting friends here in FL and here at DS of course :).
I dont feel sorry for myself neither I am looking for pitty, I just have a hard time to be realistic sometimes. Am I setting myself for faluire? I dont want to give up my dream because of fear.
Is it unrealistic for a bp live completely alone? Is it too dangerous? Is bp going to hold me back? Am I forgetting to consider something important?
Please be honest, dont worry bout hurting my feelings, I am very stable today, so I can take criticism :)
I feel very scared of taking this big step in my life, for the first time I will be on my own, no boyfriend, no husband, no friends living near me.
I need to feel in charge of my life for the first time, I can't live with the thought of depending on people for my happines and well being. I made the mistake of staying married because I was affraid of been alone and sick. Now my divorce is almost finalised.
I searched for the perfect place to live and I found it, I visited and I've fallen in love with the city. It is safe, young, it has great hospitals, great weather, it is a small city but close to four major cities. It is a perfect place for me.
Now my fears, my dream city is located far from Florida (where I live). I dont know anyone there, no doctors, no friends, no family, no neighbors, not even the roads.
I will hate myself forever if I have to depend on someone to take care of me. I've been in treatment for my disorder for only 1 year, and I am still struggling, but I have a lot ambition to live a healthy life.
My whole family lives in Brazil, and they already made clear if I get too sick I would became a "burden" to the family.I do have some supporting friends here in FL and here at DS of course :).
I dont feel sorry for myself neither I am looking for pitty, I just have a hard time to be realistic sometimes. Am I setting myself for faluire? I dont want to give up my dream because of fear.
Is it unrealistic for a bp live completely alone? Is it too dangerous? Is bp going to hold me back? Am I forgetting to consider something important?
Please be honest, dont worry bout hurting my feelings, I am very stable today, so I can take criticism :)
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Sometimes we have to take the plunge. It sounds like you are "going to" instead of "running away". That is healthy. Just because we are BP doesn't mean we can't live life. Hope this helps.
I hope you get a good night of sleep, dont keep yourself awake, rest.
I will talk to you soon
Thank you for the support.
northreco , thank you too, I really dont want to run away because of fear.
I will mantain the good attitude
I found my acceptance for this illness by attending a DBSA support group. Guess misery loves company, but also just talking to others face to face and sharing how others deal with daily triggers and reactions of others and really, really knowing you are not alone with this...knowing others have taken the same meds before...dealt with the same issues has meant so much in my growing stronger and healing to a great extent.
Hope this helps you, and good luck with your move. Bless you on your fresh start in life. A wonderful new beginning.
I don't think it is unrealistic for a bp to live completely alone or too dangerous.
Please consider:
1. Finances-- Where is the money coming from both short term and long term? Divorce settlements? Savings? Family? What are future jobs/careers?
2. Setting up support system especially while you are up-- 1. medical-- at least phone numbers of a pdr and counselor in new cities and if you have insurance making sure it matches. 2. activities desired to meet people for social network
3. maybe a pet 4. get map on computer
YOU GO!!!!!!
DBSA support group. (Guess misery loves company, thats cute!)
I did not know DBSA could be that helpful.
As it is right now I am ok, I saved some money, from the divorce I wont get anything, because there is nothing to get :)
My biggest fear is me having a crises, other than that I am not afraid of working hard. I will be careful and make sure I take all the precautions necessary.
You are the best, thank you!