so my ex is a major trigger for my suicidal ideations. I’m literally terrified of running into him in public like a restaurant or store. I keep running over scenarios in my head each ending with my crying in a panic attack. Am I being paranoid? My ex lives in my area and my sister has run into him many times.
My anxiety has gotten really bad. Ive had 3 flat tires with one blow out on highway then spin out on ramp which left me in a ditch. I wasnt hurt but now im terrified of driving. Especially when it rains and we've been getting rain everyday so i havent gone far. Just to grocery store. Ive had to cancel appts for fear of driving. I just dont lnow how to overcome it. I feel trapped.
I am struggling. My disability appeal hearing is the beginning of September, and I can think, literally, of nothing else. My mind just keeps going over it again and again and again...I spoke with my lawyer this past week. I have my last pdoc appointment before the hearing this coming Thursday. I've gone over and over the criteria for the "listing" I am claiming as my disability, BD, statistics...