so my ex is a major trigger for my suicidal ideations. I’m literally terrified of running into him in public like a restaurant or store. I keep running over scenarios in my head each ending with my crying in a panic attack. Am I being paranoid? My ex lives in my area and my sister has run into him many times.
So this is my first time flying alone since the 80's and 1st time flying with my service dog so a bit nervous. I just don't want a hassle. I have all my paperwork and called the US airline (flying from Canada and then switching planes) and they gave me inconsistent information so to be safe, I am bringing every document. Going to vet tommorow for final "health check". NOt sure why I am so...
Feeling how my childhood of all forms of abuse and my abusive marriage has fucked my current life and future. Feel like dying. I am sorry. Therapist tried to help me understand my shitty past. Apparently if I look critically I am not garbage even if I feel that way and want to die.