so my journey started with treatment of a.d.d. Then, depression. no med helped, imipramine and wellbutrin made me feel the worste. now i take parnate. i feel OK, but after being on the depression website and asking others about spending sprees it was brought to my attention that i may actually have bipolar. i spent 400 this week on my credit card, i've had better energy since being on the parnate, which is good cos before i would have bouts of lethargy. now i can clean the house and keep up with makeup and meals. and redecorate, repaint, and revamp my wardrobe. i've also considered taking up a second job or taking real estate classes, but haven't actually looked into it. i don't sleep well, but that could be the medicine. i like the medicine. i would be sad if my doc changed it bc it is helping with depression and i seem to be getting more consistent with keeping up with things in my life. however, the spending is crazy. im scared i will crash and get depressed again after i have to face the bills. i see my doc tomorrow. i don't know how to approach him with this. do i just come out and say, uh-i think i have bipolar or maybe just a serious shopping addiction? in the past i would have these phases where after a very stressful event i'd give up on reality and go on crazy spending sprees, drink and party and smoke pot. i'd look for thrills. i'd think, 'this is me-i'm cool, not that boring stepford wife bullsh*t' then later i'd go back to being depressed. then sometimes, where i am at right now, i'd just feel almost right, but the spending was always trouble.
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