Most of my family (uncles and cousins) are the "perfect" type. It's well known in my family that my father and his children were/are the "outcasts" of the family.

Yeah...shitty feeling to see others doing so easily what you crave to do and just can't.

sorry, supposed to be "perfect" in first sentence. Guess that is stating the obvious.

Oh they eist but I always want to be a fly on the wall when they are alone. Behind closed doors are they really that perfect or do they put on a perfect front...

the outer appearance means so much to some..you are just wise! Little things please little minds - acting out life from a textbook..ya de ya de ya..these people only last so long, then crack, n become one of us - have you not seen "falling down"....

everyone has flaws. EVERYONE. some just hide them better than others...and some don't bother to hide them at all. :)

Ok, I understand what you're all saying, but you have to trust me on this one. I don't say this about many people. I would only say it about two people I know now. But this woman is an amazing mother. She's funny, self-effacing, really smart, hard working, down to earth and always gets the job done. I just feel like to accomplish all that she does I'd have to put in at least twice the effort and that feeling sucks. Can anyone relate to this?

Not a problem. People that come off as perfect usually have some deep dark secret, I mean REALLY gross stuff. Like the beat their grandmother to within an inch of her life.
So they're worse than me!
Or maybe it's just my big ego..

comparing self in that way is a really detrimental habit, you're beating yourself up...always be ppl 'better' and 'worse' if you wanna play that game.

Also, I wonder if I weren't bp how much more would I be capable of doing, ya know?

You're right, Lou, it is detrimental. And I tell myself that but I still can't help feeling that way. Sorry, what do you mean by ppl "better" and "worse?"

O...M....G - preserve me from perfect people, well, in fact, these are not creative people and I would far prefer to be creative (like all of you) than perfect, any day, after all, the creative ones are those that GIVE life, are they not...well, I think so anyway....hugs Cathrynn X

They can have their perfections.
Let them have the perfect life.

Well, by whatever standards you're measuring by...more competent, less competent..whatever.

I'd be more tender in my reply if you didn't have George Bush speaking on your fuckin behalf

bieng detrimental to ones-self is rare gift we have..who set the standard anyway?...