Hi, I am a 45 year old woman married to a wonderful man and I have 2 daughters in their late 20's. For 20 years I had what they termed depression and I was on every pill going. I also had an eating disorder. Finally I got shock treatments and got better. Then in March I slipped. Antidepressants made me very anxious which is a sign of bipolar. I was assessed by the most knowledgeable pdoc in North America. I have high anxiety and he said that is my mania and of course I get the lows. I never feel normal or elated and high. I have mixed and separate states of anxiety and depression. I am alone a lot because my husband works and I can barely stand how alone and bored I am. I have no friends. I don't know why because I'm a super nice person. I have 2 people I talk on the phone to. All week I stress about being alone on the weekend. I can't find any resources in my city that would work for me. Some are too far away for me to bus it to. I went to a coffee house program but they weren't very welcoming. So I fight anxiety and depression all day and have pretty bad weekends. I have 6 siblings and my parents are gone. I have a social work diploma from college. Being depressed, I'm not interested in much. Thank you again for your welcoming replies. I look forward to getting to know you all better.
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