I WROTE IN THE BP DISCUSSION SECTION.. I REALLY OPENED UP TO YOU OUT THERE!!!! AND GOT SOME RESPONSES. THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO REPLIED.. DEPRESSION HAS TAKEN HOLD... THERE IS TOO MUCH GOING IN MY MIND MAKING IT NULL AND FLAT...I FEEL THE CONTROL GOING OUT OF CONTROL ANY MOMENT...A DEAMON DEEP INSIDE WAITING TO MERGE INTO A BAD EVIL...EMOTIONS BEING FORCED TO OTHERS AS EVERYTHING IS OKAY...NOT WANTING TO LET ANYONE DOWN..BUT I FEEL IT SLIPPING AWAY...THE EDGE OF CRYING THE LUMP IN MY THROAT...THE SPINNING BACK INTO THE WELL.. BUILDING MY WALLS BACK UP TO PROTECT MYSELF...THINKING THE PERFECT SUICIDE....NO DOC, NO E.R., NO BODY.............
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