I read your journal, just wanted you to know my kids didn't go to school today for the same reason. It is so hard.
When next week do you see the doc?

wednesday , i refuse to see the one that tells me its just selfish to contemplate suicide with all the drugs that r out there , so i have to wait , im glad your kids didnt make it either , no im nnot glad but you know what i mean , so u strugglin to then ?

now can you really expect us to help if you don't tell us whats' doing on?

i seen your comment thank you , benjenum there's nothin goin on as such , ive just went so down , i cant seem to get back up again , n its killin me

Unfortunately, your journal is locked to just friends so I couldn't access it to discover what's going on with you. The only piece of generic advice I might give you is to possible change your routine, visit a friend, go for a walk (or other exercise) talk to someone that understands what you're going through, or try and take a nap. These coping mechanisms don't always work. I wish you the best of luck with your struggles. I know it's tough to go it alone.
peace, teresa

I can't access your journal, so I don't know specifically what is going on... but I can tell you that things get better! They always do! Stay possitive and keep your mind busy... You can always PM me if you need to talk!!!

thank you so much, i know my journals locked , i have to keep it that way now as i had some problems with some of my ex's family comin on , n this is the only place i am truly honest with how this illness affects me , i deleted some friends recently cause i just wasnt sure n my paranoia got the better of me , silly really , but they really dont understand this illness , this place is my lifeline , its so good to be surrounded with people who understand how bp can affect you xx

You will do it.
The polis make me radge too !!
Sometimes when we are feeling bad EVERYONE looks as if they are aloof around you.
Try getting the strength from inside to reach next week.Maybe call on some real life people too.This is strong of you anyway.To ask for help is proof that you know there is hope.I sent you a message.
No jokes too !! ha

I'll be on and off all day, message me or chat me up if you need to talk. We do really care about you!

Dear Rjanie, Sorry you are not feeling on top of things at the moment. I can't read your journal, but I can imagine where you are right now. My friend used to cope with the 'bad days' by absorbing his mind in something which occupied all of his concentration to the exclusion of everything else - is there anything you can do which would do this? I know that you probably barely have the energy to read this email right now let alone concentrate on anything else but it might be worth a try. Exercise helps because it releases good hormones - you'd probably have to force yourself like I would have to but it might be worth a go? You can go tell me to take a run and jump if you like, I will understand ;0) Hope you feel better soon. Taggie x

All I can offer are Hugs and wishes for Strength and Determination to Hang In There... I know Pain, very well, and I Care. *hugs*

do you know you are all so lovely , just knowin there is people who understand helps immensely , honestly i dont know how i coped before i found this place , you are all so amazing xx

Dear Rjaine: I can't get into your journal. I know going to the hospital is very different now in the UK to when I used to work psyche there in the early eighties. Could you talk to a therapist, nurse practioner of case worker? I don't know if you are suicidal but may I suggest you try one of the crisis lines found at the bottom of the DS page. As professionals maybe they have ideas that can keep you out of the hospital until you can be seen. I would be honoured to be your friend and read your journal if you feel comfortable with that.