i HATE this!!!!!aaaahhhhh!!!!!My brain is screaming. one minute i'm fucking awesome, then one thing sets me off and i'm ready to beat the living shit out of anything with a hammer. i'm so fucking frustrated. i hate this! im up and down nonstop, i cant keep doing this! i want an outlet, i want this to get out of me, i feel like an explosive bomb, or a balloon that has stretched as far as it can go then POP! i just want to punch something. i don't get it. i don't get this, i was fine i was feeling good-my brain never shuts up, but i was happy, my kids were happy. oh, my poor kids. i feel so bad for them, i'm such a shitty mother. they don't deserve a piece of shit like me. i'm going to fuck them up, i know it. they will hate me just like i hate my step dad. my husband, why does he love me? how could he possibly? i'm an anchor. i'm just a piece of garbage. im a waste of everyones time, he's so much better than me. i can't do anything right. i hate myself. i'm making everyone's life hell. i can't stand this. make this stop.
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