Today is a particularly frustrating day. I woke up pissed off and angry and depressed. My mind is racing and my body doesn't want to move. It's 1:30pm and I am still in my pjs. I slept for 12 hours last night. That's seems to be the norm for this new medication I'm on. I should be cleaning but I keep seeing visions of myself drinking the cleaning fluid so I am afraid to clean. I am afraid that I might follow through on that. I don't know if I can control it. I want to try to get out of the house but I am afraid I am going to wreck my car on purpose. I feel lilke I am losing my mind. I am also seeing visions of hurting myself in various ways. ie cutting, running my car off the road, jumping off the roof. I know its crazy and I don't want to follow through on them so I keep plugging away on my computer so I am tring to keep myself distracted. Anyone have any suggestions on how to deal with this?
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