Im getting really bad off. Honestly I dont know how im stitting here right now long enough to type this. The past month I have been getting worse and worse with the mania. I wish I could gloat and be happy like I have seen someone do recently about it. But I am afraid. I need and want to go to the hospital. But then who is going to watch my children because of my husbands work and school schedule. The voices were telling me to hurt my husband last night for his comments about my anger. I just went to my room. I have searched the house looking for any kind of medication that will just knock me out until I can get a mood stablizer. But because of my past attempt at trying to take pills to off myself my husband dosnt keep them in the house anymore. I have been trying the past two days to avoid any and all stimuli. But everything is stimulating to me right now. Like my senses have been hightened. I wish the responsible adults in my life would understand that I really need help right now. That I cant do this anylonger. Help, Please. This isnt a threat of suicide so I dont know if I will actually get any responces to this. But please hlep me.
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