Ok well i have started anger management and i began talking one on one to this woman and what she said really freaked me out. We were speaking about how i got the huge bruises and cuts on my forearm got there .So ill go back to last week for a minute. Me and fiance had gotten into a huge fight (those who rage should understand) I have a long history with violence ..i cut a few times but that never helped ..I have to break shit and se it in a million pieces..i have to punch the wall and i wont stop untill my hand goes thru .im 5'2 ..when when im manic and someone has offended me ...it is a problem ..So anyway .we got into a loud argument and he told me to get out ... i told him no than i took the speaker of the wall and thru it ..Billy than knew how seriously offended i was and backed down ..but my pitbull saw my violent ways (as he has many times ) and jumped up and bit me.So the girl at group said the dog see's the evil in me ..and has no respect for me because of the chaos i have brought to his life .I am saddened by this and love my dog so much ..But in a small way she is right .See i have this build up before i explode and i know he is very aware what is going to happen because he will start following me. Do you think my dog knows im nuts ????LOL Please let me know what you think
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