from Thanksgiving until yesterday without any medication. I was okay without Prozac or any other medication and was actually doing well and was being productive. THEN yesterday, my mother-in-law triggered me and I turned angry manic yesterday, now I'm mixed and headed into depression. I happened to have my PDoc visit this A.M. and I AM SO FUCKING PISSED! Because I'm rapid cycling she now has me (justifyably unfortunately) on Lithium and Abilify. I'm 34 weeks preggers. WHY ME!? MY SON DESERVES BETTER THAN TO HAVE THIS SHIT COUSING THROUGH HIS TINY INNOCENT INUTERO BODY!!! I HATE MYSELF THAT I CAN'T EVEN MAKE HIS JOURNEY TO THE WORLD A PEACEFUL ONE! WHY AM I SO WEAK THAT I NEED MEDS!!!!!????? HE DESERVES A BETTER MOTHER!
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