Hi. I am reently diagnosed and now I am extremely depressed. More then I have ever been in my whole life. I was manic for about 6 months, and it ha its ups and downs, and I went to the doctors, and tried diferent medications, but I was so productive, and so creative, and so happy. I was also compulsive and kind of irresponsible, and made some bad financial choices, and highly stressed, but it was a different kind of unhappiness. Now I am so low and so unhappy. Its a depression I have never experienced before. Such a hopelessness. Now I would do ANYTHING to feel normal, to care again. I feel so lost and so alone, and so unfunctionable.I really don't know what to do, and I am so afraid of my ownself, because I just don't care.
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