I keep going off of my meds because I get so excited that it seems there is no end to the momentum! And then the shift happens. I start paying attention to the little things that people do to control me with out my permission, and the more and more I fight back the bigger the fight seems to get. Then there are those "innocent" pleasures that help me take the focus away from what the world is coming to, and those pleasures seem to take the focus away from the whole reason I'm living. Then I'm caught in the middle of denying myself those little escapes and trying to ignore the ones that are around me. I have a website that I use to vent http://zichaelasmiracle.com/b/ and it helps some, but usually only reminds me that I'm the one in control, and I'm not sure if I really want to take that responsability, but it seems inevitable. One day I will have to stand up and claim a spot in life for my own. I just hope I don't wait too long. I'de like to start a discussion about some ways that I can get back on the bandwagon and maybe share a little bit about our journey along the way.
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