i am tired of feeling up for a few days and then down for a few days. it makes me so angry all the time. i have kids and i wonder if i am a decent mom to them anymore. i call my doc and they never return my phone calls i dont know what to do anymore. for a few days i am high on top of the world and full of energy, then for the next few days i have dark thoughts and cant keep them away. i feel like everyone is out to get me or looking at me like i am gross. sounds dumb but really it seems real to me. my moods come on so quick i cant even predict them. i am a stay at home mom and its spring break and my husband travels with his job and i am all alone. i just wanna scream. i just wanna cry and beg for him to come home. but yet he doesnt understand he tells me to be strong, im not that strong anymore. my mind races it convinces me of things i am unsure of. someone please help me.
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