Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I have been deeply depressed for at least 3 months now. I called to set up an appointment with a pdoc when I first moved back then and it's still a month away b/c they're so booked. I see my therapist tomorrow, but that's only to tell her I would like a referal to another therapist in their building. I don't feel her direction is the one I need. I'm in agony. I'm 27 weeks pregnant and the idea that this could all cause a premature birth scares the hell out of me. I wait until my husband goes to work and break into tears b/c I feel he's too busy to keep hearing about it though he's been supportive. Right now the only thing keeping me here is the little one. I have a big belief that if you take yourself, it's not right to take someone with you. And I'm afraid to try, b/c what if I survive and am left with a messed up kid b/c of my actions? I am so scared and so alone. I have looked everywhere for some relief. I look for reason's as to why I am depressed but can't find one, I just am. I don't know what to do anymore.
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Yeah, I been there probably will be again, this damn bipolar shit brings out the best and worst in us.
And if you are like me, nothing I say positive in your state right now is gonna help.
that's ok, you posted, and it means somewhere, DEEP down, you know what is right, and what is best for you. Try and focus on that. Curl up in that small space in your mind that keeps you hanging on.
Do the little things, go outside and try to "feel" nature. Move from you bed (or your PC) to the couch. Read a book and get lost in it. little steps, not huge, just little ones till you pull through.
Much love for you, we got your back up in here
Peace out
Being pregnant can make a "normal" person depressed for no reason.
I hope you feel better soon.
You are wonderful. Wyldegirl - please listen to him, he knows from experience what he's talkiing about.
when i'm depressed i get so pissed when people say "take a walk in the sunshine" and stuff, but actually just getting up and getting dressed and doing SOMETHING can really help. in the meantime. until you get actual help (professionally).
Please find a way to allow your self to focus on nothing but you and finding things you can enjoy. A baby rat may not be for you but Im sure there is something.
BIg Hugs
Buggie
Beating the shit out of myself for my choices is also part of who I am. Difference for me is, I am learning how to use a wet noodle to beat myself up with instead of that big ass hammer I've always carried.
Bottom line is, sometimes this shit gets the better of us, but we gotta move on anydamn way. I know it sucks. If it really gets that bad for you, go to the hospital...for real
I would love a bunny that was house trained... did he/she ever chew up house wires? I knew a house bunny and they chewed wires a lot...
At this point I'm considering going to the hospital. I've never done anything outside of a therapist or pdoc. I know if you go to the hospital they'll help you right away. Do you mean a normal hospital? What would they do?
Got shackled and chained into the back of a sherrifs car and rode for two hours to the Psych hospital.
The end result was, I got on better meds, and felt much better. Even though I felt like crap about how I got help, it was there and I made it through.
Call you therapist or Pdoc first if you can, but NEVER be afraid to seek help at a hospital either