Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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I see my PAST like..

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I see my PAST like those old home movies.
Super 8.
Not super.
No sound.
Unsteady camera work.
Someone else's smile on me and a different speed to life's movement.

There was lots of joy but looking back it's disconnected joy.

Unnaturally falling light.Always 'summer'

Another world of me.

You ?
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You're beautiful, Strum, you do have a way with words. I see my past like a bad dream, I woke up cold, trying to forget. But everytime I forget, I dream again. The further away it gets, the happier I will be... until it's gone.
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Thanks BP.
I was with someone yesterday, just a friend.She looked at my very modest life.She asked,wow, how do you view yr past? She thought I had become really cool.Which is odd??

Nothing heavy.Just a friend's passing question.
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I really don't remember much of my past, all I ever get is a glimps of a memory that seems to fade in and out. Like you, no sound, all the colours are washed out to almost nothing.
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I remember around 200.I was still fucked up bad.I used to picture a mountain on my chest as I woke up from a merciless night.
I am not being too dramatic.
Crawkling up to the end of the day then being thrown off.Time was nowhere.
I'd be sedated then get up to another mountain.

It improves.
It's impossible to forget.Because you dial throug.You scrape each foot.No switch from one state to the other in experiences.A scraaaape.
The switches are in the mind.he swings.Everything else we drag through.


There, can I talk about fucking now ?
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2000 not 200
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I look back on my life and see red. Anger, rage, being mistreated and then fades to blue, calm, peace, love. Not much joy though.
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How come no joy? I meant I remember times where there was laughter and love.It's been made powerless by the rest
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interesting question. i saw a home movie of my myself before bp and i felt like i was watching someone else.

i remember my past through the lens of what i know now - so what i remember is "tainted" with awareness.

who i saw on the t.v. was more naive, had less depth.

this is a convoluted answer, i know what i mean but i can't quite express it...
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Thanks to ECT's, not much to really see...a clean slate if you will
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ECTs

Eric Clapton's Tigress ?

Elvis Costello's Tapir?

Elton's Cheetah Toupee ?

Yeah, I know XX
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Everyman's carnal temptation
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Evangelical Carnal Thrombosis ??!!
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Englebert's Crotchless Trousers
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Esteban's carne tostada
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Elvis coming tonight
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