I really scared myself today with the way I reacted to my suicial thoughts. There is a whole big entry about it in my journal, but it basically boils down to the fact that there is always a part of me that wants to die and somehow my fear of death and my desire to live supress the desire to die. Today the thought of givin into that desire brought me peace. This scared me. Does anyone else have thoughts that scare them?
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