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I REALLY messed up!!!

deleted_user
deleted_user
I've been feeling really crazy lately, constantly swinging from anxious to enraged. Being unmedicated is so hard on me. Today I snuck into my fiance's meds. I took 2 vicodins and 2 valiums and 1 codeine and a Lexapro. I'm not trying to commit suicide, i have a VERY high tolerance for pain meds and downers. I thought they'd help me feel better, but they had no effect at all, just made me sweat horribly and break out in an uncomfortable rash. Anyone else ever do something stupid like this? If so, how did you avoid the temptation to take just a few more pills to get some sort of effect?
dancingd
dancingd
Your profile says you are expecting a baby in DEC?

And you are taking these meds indiscrimnately?

Girl...get on the phone asap...YOU NEED HELP
freeheeler
freeheeler
Hey Candybar, as one speaking from experience, time to see a doc! Call your doc's emergency line or get to an ER hon! Take care of yourself!
deleted_user
deleted_user
I am expecting in Dec, that's why I say I really messed up. Who do I call? I have no one. I didn't mean to do bad. I hate myself so freakin bad right now you don't even know. I'm sorry.
dancingd
dancingd
Don't hate yourself,don't feel sory for your self.
Go to an ER or call a pharmacy,and tell them what you have done.
Right now your respocebility is to an unborn baby.
Take care of you,take care of your baby.
Call county health,call local hospital,who do you see for prenatal health,call them!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yea, nothing wrong with admitting your mistakes. We're all human after all. But take responsibility for what you did and seek help like everyone ehre is saying. Words of adive over the internet can only go so far. It's time to take action hun, if not for you then for your kid.
Hapless
Hapless
call your doc. they can help you get through what ever it is you need to right now. If you don't have a therapist, get one. take care
deleted_user
deleted_user
The first step is realizing you messed up... you did that... now you get help. You can be strong; it took strength just to say 'I messed up' so you know that you are strong enough to get help to make things right. I'm proud of you... many people would hide it without trying to right the wrongs.
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