I didn't have to goto the hospital but it was due to my husbnad keeping me away from the nyquil. I took a 750 Vicodin, 55 mg. of Valium and 2 Klonopin. I have an appt with a Rheumatologist tomorrow for another painful issue I have. I just can't understand why God would have saved me from Acute Pancreatitis in 2006 to put me through so much now- anxiety, bi polar disorder, very painful joints, memory loss, constipation and panic attacks. Why didn't he just finish me off in the hospital when I was already half dead? Am I paying for past mistakes? This does suck ass and I bet social security will deny me and drag me through the long process of reapplying and/or giving 25% of what's coming to me to an f'ing attorney! Noe I realize why a lot of stories I read on this forum are so gloomy. I try to be so grateful for all the blessings in my life, but it's so hard sometimes. waa! Is this my new heavier cross for being bad as a younger girl that I've already asked forgiveness for? It's like I want to go to ER to prove to social security that I am sick enough to receive benefits. I am having a really low day.
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