I know this is a first........But I need to talk, I am crashing. I hate admiting this, I hate feeling this. I have avoided triggers daily to avoid this. Today, my son Michael, 20, told me he missed his court appointment for minor consumption. He didnt do it on purpose, he just forgot. Michael is my son that has been clean for a year of opiates. He has done well until he got caught at a party after drinking two beers. Well, because he missed his court appt today, he has to turn himself in tonight to jail. I was ok with it, I thought. I have to let him face his own consequences. But...........I am suddenly crashing thinking about him in jail. I am not sure why, my oldest son has been there many times. I just have a hard time letting this one go. Michael is my second of four. I cant stop crying and thinking about it....... Hugs
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