I think i'm losing my mind. I dont know whats wrong with me anymore. I just feel weird. and angry. i dont want to be bipolar and i dont think i am as you all know. but i got this email from my best friend tonight. it just really affected me. she told me i have "went off the deep end" since last july. she compared me to britney spears saying she cant do this with anymore and keep watching my life spiral out of control. i dont know what to make of any of that but its really affecting me. i used to be this vibrant fun loving girl. now i'm this psycho who always has these issues. maybe i'm just making myself crazy? I cant figure it out and it IS making me crazy. Normal people dont do this right? or do they? do normal people freak out like this? why is everyone who knows me telling me to stay on the meds? and why do i disagree so much? what do they see that i dont? i want so much not to be on meds. i hate them. but yet i'm so scared to go off them. its like this paralyzing thought of "should i stay or should i go?" why am i so stessed out and confused?
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