I am so sad. I want to cry. Things in my life are so complicated and I am so afraid. I know that I am heading into a low, but this is one of the bad ones. The self talk can only go so far. I can't go to my boyfriend for support because he can't be there, he just doesn't know how to help me up when I am down. If anything, he makes it worse with comments like "I am not ready to marry you because of the bipolar." We have been together 3 1/2 years. He has known about the bipolar much of this time. I don't need to hear this crap. I am not even sure I am ready to get married. I have never been married, do I want to give up my freedom? I am so scared and I am really hurting. Can anyone out there understand? I need some support, please. I am on the verge of crying and if I start, I know I won't be able to stop for hours.
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