So while I was in he hospital I resigned from my position as a teachers aid. My parents want me to focus on getting "better" and they said they will financially support me until such a time as I can get back to work or my ssi comes through.
I thought it was all gonna be ok, but m parents are really struggling financially to the point where my dad is considering leaving my mother.
My dilemma is, do i look for a job right now? I have a cousin who manages a store in a neighboring town. But I'm not even a month out of the and I am anxious just thinking about having to deal with people. I cant even deal with my own family. THey dont want me workig now, and my psoc doesnt want me working, but i feel horribly guilty that my minimal bills ($230/month) are a buden to my family. Im stressed now because they are stressed. I dont know what to do.
Im not feeling today. Woke up with a headache body is still hurting bad. Deppresed and sad. These mood swings are crazy I can't handle it. Been super emotional and down. Hope you all are doing good.
Lately they have been coming a lot, and they are usually the same-that someone is trying to shoot and kill me. Keeps me up at night and then I am exhausted the next day. There were not weapons involved with the things that happened, but there was once a threat against my life, a thinly veiled threat to kill me, so maybe I dream of it in the form of a gun. I've been reading books on...