Do you take medications to stabilize it? What are you doing to cope now?

I like to read something uplifting when I'm not well.

I'm so sorry things are not going well for you right now, but beleive me when I say things will get better,it just seems as though life is against you but you are one of God's children and he loves each of us and is working on our behalf. please put your trust in him and watch that rainbow come to life. big hugs to you, twopeople

Thank you both. I'm feeling a bit better.
Flower

I am exactly where you're at right now. Where's this light at the end of the fucking tunnel?? I've been cutting myself this evening, just to continue to feel pain. How fucked up is that? I'm starting to think that I don't want to get better, just worse......

Oh man do I know what you're talking about! I recently lost my job, lost my health benifits, my boyfriend got deployed. I go EVERYWHERE literally everywhere to apply for work but no one is hiring. I give them my resume's anyways. I felt so upset, out of control, depressed. Then I prayed.

I asked God if he could have something good happen. Anything! I soon later realized that it is me that makes me feel so down. I was looking at everything bad and not the good things. The good things are, I have a loving family that supports me emotionally and financially. I had options when It came to health benifits and I now am on a premium-free plan. Although my boyfriend is deployed and I miss him, I feel proud to be the girlfriend of a warrior. The girlfriend of a wonderful man who protects our freedom.

It can be very hard and discouraging at times but we must TRY and look at all of the good in our lives. I really hope you can do this for yourself. I feel for you a lot. The more you look into the bad, the more angry, discoraged, enraged and dissappointed you're going to feel. Looking and being greatful for the good will give you some inner peace.

Sometimes, it could be time for a new med or change but not all the time. If you feel like you have tried everything in the book, then I would talk to your Pdoc. I know it's hard. I'm here for you!!!

Hang in there. Something good will eventually happen. Been there done that. Try to do some little things for yourself even if it is juat a trip to McDonalds or Burger King for a hamburger. When I was really struggling last year just taking my little girl to the doughnut shop was exciting. As for job loss(if your dealing with this) It is a bad situation for everybody. One of my Wife's best friends husband who is an electrical engineer just lost his job because of the down turn in the ecconomy. Hell, I work for $8.80 an hour at a grocery store: well under the 13 to 15 dollars an hour I was making as an EMT.
Like I say, start with little victories. You can do it!

hey flower and everyone! been cutting, cutting, cutting, can't seem to stop and it makes depression worse. no rainbows here. how about we all just have a communal roar!