It's too bad that you feel this way but not all meds make you fat. Besides if you do get fat isn't that better than rapid cycling? You can control your weight through diet and exercise anyways if you do put on the weight. Besides the point exercise is good for mood stabilabity. You need to control your mood first then worry about your weight.

Fucking Hell...I actually agree with Artie !!

* faints *

Call your Pdoc !!!!
You know you are none of those bad things !!!! That is just a negative dialog running thru you brain.The Pdoc will be very sensitive to your weight issues and can prescribe things that are maybe not as likely to cause weight gain.Hell Depakote is the #1 weight gain med out there.If you did fine on it you probably do not have much to worry about.I put on an enormous amt of weight in no time each time I was put on it. Call you Dr .You know where this all leads when you do not take care of it.Don't want to go there....right???? Call.
(((HUGS)))

Go easier on yrself too. If you feel that you are able to advise others with logic... then you have to try and apply it to your own life, too.

i know EXACTLY how you are feeling.

bad wrong stupid selfish arrogant immature self-centered over-dramatic too sensitive repulsive ugly incompetent - did i say stupid?

up & down - delusions of grandeur - delusions of decreptitude.

been anorexic for 27 years - but whose counting. fat ugly obese disgusting bloated - me. that's me.

been there? i AM there - now. right there with you - & i KNOW it sucks.

HA! look - i even stole your thread - fucking self-centered idiot... me.

sorry

Very true.Oz is right you give so much good advice here.Turn it inward.This will pass and things will improve.

feisty, you asked for tough love, so I'm going to give it to you.

First of all, you are a vital part of this board. You have shared wisdom beyond your years that has helped many of us pull us out of our funks when we needed it. Thank you for that. It's worth more to me than you could ever know.

Secondly, be thankful you HAVE a BP group to attend. This board is the ONLY BP group I have. Why are you putting on an act for us and for your in person BP group? You know as well as I do that being open and honest is the only way we can get through this illness and help one another.

Finally, why the f*ck aren't you listening to your own advice? You already know what you need to do. And I know I have set aside my own issues on more than one occasion in order to offer help, comfort and advice to another one who needs it. If that is putting on an act, then I guess I am as guilty as you are.

This tough love was brought to you to help you get past the sh*t you are going through. You deserve better in your life, especially from yourself.

um - why does everyone find it so improbably that we DO NOT listen to our own advice? OF COURSE NOT!

my best friend - most stable guy i knew (or thought i knew) - a fucking lifeline for all around him - myseld included & his schizophrenic sister - took his own life for fuck's sake! did he listem to his own advice? apparently not.

Nah that's a hollow cliche....you can take yr own advice...eventually

First off ((((big hugs for a bad day)))

Second off- Get off your butt. Call your pdoc and talk about a med tweak. Chances are they'll just up your Depakote a little bit. This is not an all of nothing situation.

Don't worry about freaking out in a BP support group. Next time you go you'll probably get ten people telling you about the last time they lost it in public. We freak out- it's ok. If you'd had a choice you wouldn't have freaked out- thus, you didn't have a choice at that moment.

(((((hugs))))

I am sorry you are feeling bad. I finally came clean yesterday, complete honesty with my pdoc on certain issues. I am with you on meds that make you gain weight too. It can be scary I know.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. You are none of those things. You are a nice and caring person. I would call yor pdoc.

Please take care of yourself.

You know the drill. Call your p-doc and get on some different meds or go to the hospital. A lot of people have given some great advice.

Is your doctor and/or your neurologist involved in your treatment? You need to look at that too because of your MS. I wouldn't be worried about getting fat but, I would be worried about it affecting your MS.

You have to do something ASAP! Oz said it best go easier on yourself! But most important take care of yourself.

Thanks you guys, and I'm waiting for my pdoc to call back.

One of my good friends and my sister had noticed I was starting to crash a couple weeks ago and were scared to say anything because they were worried about how I would react. This is so new to them that we had not discussed how to approach me.

I was thankful to my friend, and was glad she loved me enough to bring it up today, who knows how I would have reacted a week from now.

I gave her my husbands and sisters cell phone numbers in case THAT ever happens. (If she confronts me when I'm too far gone.) She doesn't live near, so she can't just come and take me to the doctor, it was scary to give her those numbers, but I'm glad I did.

Thanks for all the tough love. xoxo Jen