Bipolar Disorder Support Group

Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

6,454 Members
125,814 Posts
3 Online
Mental Health
/ Bipolar Disorder Support Group

I'm pissed off

deleted_user
deleted_user
So my Fiance decided to "check up" on me and came on this website (something I asked him not to do) and read a journal entry that was about him. I'm sorry am I suppose to feel bad now? he went behind my back and did this. and it's not the only time. he does it on myspace and facebook. if someone leaves me a message he goes to their page and tries to find out everything about them and then questions me when i get home. WTF!!!!!!!!!! so what you read something that you had no fucking business reading to begin with. So now I feel like everything I do he is watching and checking up on so I won't be using this site anymore. Thanks Mike! it just worries me that he is reading everything i post and just invading my privacy. he belongs to all kinds of car sites i don't go check those out to see who hes talking to. am i crazy for being pissed of? i don't think so I mean I know the journal entry was harsh but its nothing i havent said to his face before. and its not like any of you know him or me so wtf is he so worried about. so now hes not talking to me which i think should be the other way around. i am so sick of him doing this shit. just because he last girlfriend was a whore and cheated on him doesn't mean i am. he cannot hold me accountable for what she did its just not right. so i guess goodbye everyone and thanks for helping me out when I need it and being supportive. good luck to all of you.

Kat
alicia29
alicia29
He IS invading your space, and you have every right to be upset! Don't leave the site... as you said you have found help and support here. Don't let him take that away from you! The two of you need to have a SERIOUS conversation about this habit of his. If he is set on persecuting you for the sins of those that came before, perhaps he has some other attachment to them as well? This is a big deal! If you don't have trust, you can't have love... IMHO. I pray things work out for the best! Hugs~
deleted_user
deleted_user
Well, I just read the journal entry, and I can understand your side. All of that would get on my nerves too. With that, I would never have become his fiance no matter how good the sex is, nor would I be living with him and if you are already moving from the bed to the futon because he takes up the whole bed, do you really want to be married to this man or any other? On his side, I can understand where he is probably more hurt than angry, but is showing anger to hide the hurt. It is a pretty harsh message and the entry could have been locked so that he would not have been able to see it. Now I wonder and he probably is to, why do you stay with him and what do you love about him?
alicia29
alicia29
Kat- I just read the journal too... BOY! can I relate to your feelings, but you said something VERY important that I think you may be overlooking... He is a great guy, who does not ABUSE you in any way, and is tolerant of your condition... These other things (table manners, bathroom clean up) can be learned. Sometimes we, especially Beepers , get so wrapped up in the negative, that we forget the positive(talking about myself here)... and remember that part too late. I stick by what I said earlier about TRUST, but if that is there, or can be restored, you might need to ease up on him a bit. I am speaking from experience here, not bashing you in any way.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xK1AplNw3-8

"Hate that I Love You"... Hugs~
TKVanGogh
TKVanGogh
You are going to marry him???
Do you think it will get better?
deleted_user
deleted_user
HI...

I can see two sides of the coin. On one hand he is showing very little trust in you. The first question I would have to ask is did you do anything to give him good cause to be insecure? If not then he especially has no right to check up on you. This type of thing was what caused my last marriage to end. My ex used to go throught even the files I thought were deleted permanently. Well I guess they werent cause he found the messages. well they were deleted for a reason. I had shared parts of me that I didnt share with him. He was upset because I didnt share with him, but he really didnt want to hear it so I wasin a bit of a spot.

Perhaps he is worried that you are sharing feelings you have with others and not with him. perhaps he is worried that in a manic state you will do or say things that would cause harm to your relationship. Either way its not his place to read what you write. How ever you may want to talk to him and explain why you vent here first then share with him when you have your thoughts all worked out.

There must be some reason he feels the need to do this. Maybe if you can figure out what it is you will be able to solv3e the problems with out having to leave the support and internet stuff that you enjoy and rely on.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Don't get me wrong I do love him. He just does things that really get under my skin. and in the beginning he wasn't like this at all. he was laid back and didn't care and had trust in me. I have NEVER done anything to make him doubt me at all. I am 120% faithfull to him it's just I can't talk to him about certain things cause he gets offended. I do not sugar coat anything I am very upfront honest and to the point. and he gets offended and starts to yell and then i shut down. I feel like I have gotten myself stuck in a really bad situation and I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave him and I don't want this to end but sometimes its just too much. he just puts things in his fucking head and twists things around and somehow comes up with me doing something wrong. i just know him and i have this feeling like he created an account on here and is watching all of my posts. trust me he would do that.
Marilyanna
Marilyanna
I have a friend who has journaled for 40 years. She has a new husband that has 2 really nasty adult kids and she get alot of her anger out by journaling.

The husband broke open the lock on her trunk and sat and read 5 years worth of journals. She was so angry they had to go to counceing shhe stayed but I think it was bbecause of the money.

But I would suggest ou get out of you relationship because he is not going to change. And jealousy is not the life to live with.
deleted_user
deleted_user
change your name to something more discreet. Not telling you this for you to be secretive, but to prevent more pain.
deleted_user
deleted_user
well i told mine that i was of web site he read few times while i was sitting here but he hasn't gone one and looked at my journal. Not that it would matter but it's personal, I'm not known here, that's why I go here. I need this. When I was typing in the journal he came up behind me and i asked him not to read it, he said why not? I'm just journalling getting things out, that's all. He's ok with it. but i would be pissed if i were you too. maybe try talking to him about how you need your space as he needs his. maybe, i don't know just trying to give a help. ;)
deleted_user
deleted_user
OK go on your computer and put pass word so he can not log no to your stuff. can change it so you jurnel can only be sean by people on your friends list if he is on there take him off
deleted_user
deleted_user
You should really consider this before you marry this guy. I hope he reads this. You will regret it and it will end badly. He will attempt to control your every move. Please be careful... I say this out of concern for you... Yes you should be pissed off...
deleted_user
deleted_user
I "invited" my husband here, figuring he'd get a better idea of what I'm going thru since we rarely discuss it. I think he's checked my journal twice in all this time. Makes me feel like he just doesn't care enough.
Guess the grass is always greener on the other side?
deleted_user
deleted_user
Fuckin bitchslap him so hard he spits teeth. If anyone invaded my privacy like that, there'd be a fuckin shitstorm of massive proportions. I don't take kindly to people who have no respect for privacy. My boyfriend knows better than to come up on here.
deleted_user
deleted_user
keep your journals for friends only. My husband has done this to me though in away I deserved it however our relationship sucked at the time as I was talking on my WoW MMORPG and he went through my past talk statements from the Hx. I was like this is BS. I don't deserve that!!!!
deleted_user
deleted_user
Blu- it has less to do with him wanting to learn more like he has insecurities not that i don't deserve to be checked up on due to past affairs but if I have not screwed up here i feel like this is my sapce to be a better me. I have offered. However he gets upset if the SEX ever gets brought up. He is like some of the biggest prudes here. Thinking I will somehow hook up with someone from here. not that you aren't all probably sexy gods but give me some credit. YIKES.... There are other ways for me to get a "FIX" if I wanted!!
Posts You May Be Interested In
  • GrassIsGreen

    acknowlodging

    Posted by: GrassIsGreen
    Last Reply: GrassIsGreen
    15
    I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
  • irishwriter

    come unwind in the bp lounge

    Posted by: irishwriter
    Last Reply: MayB
    7908
    theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??