I'm so sorry to hear how desolate and empty u feel. You will be in my thoughts and prayers this week when I pray. =) Hope you get to feeling better soon. I feel that way too. I am in a mixed episode right now.

Welcome home. I don't know what to say that will make it better, so...try to keep your head up.

thanks guys, the support is much appreciated x

what about family or friends? Do you live alone? Has you key worker diagnosed you with BP?
Maybe your being miss diagnosed. I was. Well my thoughts are there for you! Good Luck

Sometimes time is the best medicine to solving a problem. It can help us get clarity. Often when I'm sitting by the washer in my corner with a knife it is because I feel like I have to fix things right now. I am learning with a lot of help to just do nothing. If the world falls down around me to accept it and not feel responsible to pick up the pieces. I know that sounds crazy but for some reason it gives me the energy to pick up the pieces when I have to. I am so very sorry that you are feeling so sick. You are a survivor. You will survive this, you have to start to tell yourself that so that you can.

yes i am. i dont know what to do. im just gonna have to ride it out x

OH, honey! I know how you feel, but everything is going to be ok! You have to stay strong! Don't let this disease win! You can do it, I am here if you need me!

Imagine if you will my arms wrapped around you giving you a big hug and a mental boost telling you that you are and will be okay. Bless you sweetie!

I have felt the way you feel. It is real horrible. I hated it when people asked if i had friends, or family to help, because I didn't. I guess I can see where there are situtaions where people have friends and family, but they are still suicidal - like bcs they are keeping some kind of secret they think is horrible.

But with depression, or a mental illness, it's an animal of its own.

the only advice I can give to you is advice that I thought I would never have come to conclude. Never. Never ever, but that is beginning a relationship with God. Call it what you want, i.e., Jesus, Allah, Hosannah, Higher Power, the Universe, but now you may want to consider that you absutley need to put yourself first.

Does that help at all? Or does it bring up more issues that we can talk aobut?

Stay here and talk talk talk about everything. Small stuff big stuff. Here is your in home support team. You will get through and get through with flying colors. Take charge!

I agree ; stay here for a while. See if our talk can get you through. I'm kind of a mess right now; but nowhere as bad off a you are, so I'll lend some support too. What is you DX? What Meds are you taking? Did you group give you a crisis hotline number in case you get overwhelmed?