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I was at a close family dinner the other day, I couldn't have a glass of wine because i was on "antibiotics" - not seroquel.
I've promised my parents I won't tell my nan I've moved out, even though its been 6 months now. When she calls round they pretend i've just popped out.
I have to pretend to the rest of my family I am single, got to keep quiet that my partners black because "its not worth the hassle".
When I told my mom I heard voices and also that I was raped i though it would lift a huge weight off my shoulders. How wrong. My own father, my own sister doesn't know anything. My own brother dosn't know I have a boyfriend and my Dad knows, but in the last 6 months hasn't been bothered to come round and meet him.
Are they that ashamed of me?
I gave my mom the leaflet the pdoc gave me about schizo affective and bipolar. That was a few weeks ago and when I spoke to her last night she still hadn't been bothered to read them.
My own mother who birthed me, the only one who knows what I've been through thinks i'm telling myself that I hear voices and she doesn't want me taking meds...
I try to tell i don't think its something thats going to go away, after all, it hasn't in then last 4 years.
She complains she doesn't understand any of this, yet the leaflets still sat... unread.. in her car... in the same place i put it weeks ago.....
sorry... just needed to get this off my chest..
I've promised my parents I won't tell my nan I've moved out, even though its been 6 months now. When she calls round they pretend i've just popped out.
I have to pretend to the rest of my family I am single, got to keep quiet that my partners black because "its not worth the hassle".
When I told my mom I heard voices and also that I was raped i though it would lift a huge weight off my shoulders. How wrong. My own father, my own sister doesn't know anything. My own brother dosn't know I have a boyfriend and my Dad knows, but in the last 6 months hasn't been bothered to come round and meet him.
Are they that ashamed of me?
I gave my mom the leaflet the pdoc gave me about schizo affective and bipolar. That was a few weeks ago and when I spoke to her last night she still hadn't been bothered to read them.
My own mother who birthed me, the only one who knows what I've been through thinks i'm telling myself that I hear voices and she doesn't want me taking meds...
I try to tell i don't think its something thats going to go away, after all, it hasn't in then last 4 years.
She complains she doesn't understand any of this, yet the leaflets still sat... unread.. in her car... in the same place i put it weeks ago.....
sorry... just needed to get this off my chest..
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
everything that goes wrong in a childs life, the mum will find a way to blme herself. which is silly. but it often means theyre not theyre for you. which isnt good.
have you tried sitting her down and making her read it, taking her to pdoc with you, explaining what the meds do and telling her what would happen if you didnt take them? maybe get her to come on here?
I'm British so i dont celebrate thanksgiving but if i was a US citizen sitting round the table with a big turkey, I'd say "I'm Thankful for.......
All of you guys...."
thats our problem.. older generations.. i think. especially grandparents!! theyre terrible when it comes to mental illness... in trying to get the to understand i mean. and parents with extremely difficult non understanding parents themselves are equally as bad.
times like the war and rations where you had to goto work at 8 yrs old and all that.. .you would have been expected to 'pull yourself together' and beaten and god knows what else. or sent to war. imagine that.. frikkin eck!! being in a war... feelin like this....
anyhow... i dont know what im on about nymore. sorry. 2 secs...
oh yeh. so thats probly why theyre the way they are. and if you heal without them, and are proud to heal without them, the pride yo have from doing it by urself will be much greater and consequently you will probly know yourself much better and trust yourself more and get to dr sooner if needs be etc.
i think you should test the water with ur fella. ask him if he knows what bp is. maybe even pretend its possible that ur being diagnosed atm? so then hes in it with you? rather than its something you havent told him about you...
dont know. im not much help today. sorry.
My mom doesn't class me as mentally ill (even though i experience the symptoms of schizophrenia and am bipolar)
she thinks i'm just "quirky"
LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1
the only way i made my mum get to the understanding she has now is to make her feel it best i can. but my mums a soppy weirdo. easily tearful. got her own problems... so i guess it was a bit easier and maybe cruel. but it kinda helped. a bit. i think. i dno.
anyway..
oooh do an experiment. tell them they have to live like you for a week.
goto their house.. and stick things on walls and hide things around the house to make them jump and things to read... things to see..
um.. hwo do i explain this without sounding like a cow/weirdo..
like... if ud hear voices or believe something... write in small... this is how id be thinking... then write summit really graphic. put stuff allll over the house... so it had to sink in.
ring them up and say something really disturbing or whatever, then a the end say , that is what it feels like (so they know your not in an episode like)
maybe you gotta scare them into understanding?
sorry... haha!
SCREW YOU!!! I'M NOT GOING TO KEEP TRYING TO EXPLAIN TO YOU THE NIGHTMARE THAT IS MY LIFE... IF YOU CAN'T EVEN BE BOTHERED TO TRY AND UNDERSTAND WHAT YOUR OWN DAUGHTER IS GOING THROUGH I'M NOT GOING TO BOTHER EITHER BECAUSE YOU THINK I'M JUST DOING IT TO GET ATTENTION AAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGHHHH
sorry.. don't quite know where that came from...
SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMM then they say 'you havent taken your tablets have you'
crazy when it suits, lazy when it doesnt!!
I contemplated stabbing myself in the chest to say 'this is what it feels like'... but kinda thought, well it doesnt feel much like that, im sure it wouldnt. and i was sure immediately after id think oh... that was silly. and i also was thinking, well, thered be blood everywhere and id have to start cleaning it, then id have to clean the whole kitchen, then everything...
then id REALLY look crazy. knife coming out my chest, trying to clean up blood, but then hoovering the stairs.. all with my family stood there with the expression of edward munchs scream painting.. or howevr its spelt. hey did they get that back? wasnt it stolen|?
i dont know what to suggest hun. short of dont try the knife thing, it will evidently be a disaster.
see how your fella takes it.
and i dno, say to your mum, if you dont wanna know, i dont wanna know. then how can she keep up with the jones'? that was this post right?