Okay, so trying to save my relationship with my fiance here, but apparently I AM NOT ALLOWED TO GET UPSET!!!!!!! I can't go to him and tell him when he's doing something that upsets me. I can't bring up anything that has to do with things that will upset him. I can't believe it! He is allowed to sit there, and tell me I'm lazy and I need to get up and do something and lose weight... and choses to do so when I am depressed. He loves me when I'm manic, but hates me when I'm depressed?!?!? I love this man to death, he and my kids are my life! I don't want to lose him and our family. But I feel like he's setting me up for failure so he can kick me out!!!!!! Am I just paranoid here???? It just hurts soooooooooo bad right now!!!! The man I though loved me is treating me like this. Am I just going on and on with a "Poor Me" adittude??? With the way I'm feeling today, I don't know if I can wait until the 9th for the doc. I HATE THIS!!!! Why can't I just be in a manic mood until then?! Why does this have to hurt so bad right now? I have my kids here with me, and I don't want them to feel the effects. What do I do? I feel so helpless right now! How did I let everything get this out of control?!?!?!?!?
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