I'm weary from this BP. I'm tired of feeling depressed, angry, anxious, sick to my stomach, unhappy, tired. What do you do when you feel like you don't have it in you anymore to live--I just feel like a car without gas. I don't want to commit suicide....I'm not suicidal....I'm just so weary from it. I haven't had a hypomanic episode since August. Sept, Oct. Nov. Guess its been three months of depression. That's certainly not my longest. But it does feel pretty bad and like there isn't a light at the end. I'm just so tired. I'm not even working and I feel so terrible. I'm not even utilizing my time to do anything and I feel frustrated about that...I'm just like a little pile of mush. Uhg!
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