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I'm a cutter!

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I was installing a door, and had to cut a notch for the hinges, on the trim. I was using a razorblade knife to cut the notch. Needless to say, the knife slipped and I slashed my thumb and part of my wrist. Blood EVERYWHERE! I went to Emergency and explained my accident. They asked me if I was on any medications and I said I was bi-polar and was taking Gapapentin, zyprexa, seroquil, wellbutrin and bromazepam. (Not sure of the spellings) ALARM bells went off in the chick's head! I was rushed into a room, and the nurse asked me if I was suicidal. I said, "No, not now." More doctors arrived! Same question... "Was I contemplating suicide?"
They said I have the same wound as a cutter. They were gonna throw me in the psyche ward!
Fuck, all I did was slash my thumb to my wrist... but, that makes me a cutter! I was bleeding like a stuffed pig... and these doctors are saying I did it, myself! Like... what the fuck? I say I'm bi-polar and suddenly, I'm suicidal! Mind you, it took 22 stitches to close the wound, but, suicidal? But, I bled (alot) for about 2 hours, before they accepted my excuse that it was an accident. My fucking left hand is numb, so excuse the typo's. Like I can't believe how you're treated once you admit to being BP... but, in a way, I'm kinda glad cause they rushed me right in!
Has this happened to anyone else? You mention that you're BP and the fucking place goes nuts?
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WOAH! They are nuts for making you wait!! What in the hell???
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sigh...i am a cutter.
i have had treatment different when i enter hospitals. for instance, they always assume your suicidal, and always have a shrink doc talk to you. i had a car accident once and they thought being BP, i did it myself...that was a laugh and alot of hard explaining to do.
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Quite the contrary in my story. I hadn't done anything yet. I went to the ER and told them that I didn't feel safe, I was suicidal...they did put me on suicide watch, a security guard just sat outside of my door.

They wanted to admit me...understandably. BUT they had no beds left. I was turned away unless I wanted to be admitted to another hospital about 100 miles away.
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I never tell what meds I'm on unless its for an emergency. The eye DR or the obgyn doen't need to know about certain meds. When I tell a Dr about depression meds, suddenly my headaches, tiredness are taken less seriously
nobody666
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they do seem to treat you different, last time i went in for an alergic reaction to depakote they were telling my wife about me sleep walking and sounding crazy the shrink came every day
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Geez hopeless, I wasn't suicidal. If the asked me a week ago... I would've said "YA!" BP can torque you fawkin head around to the point where you don't know up from down. It drags you into the depths of hell on earth... and then, this goodie-two shoes, asks you if you're suicidal. Like, what the fuck do THEY know! No one can explain the pain you feel, but yourself. I just resent the fawkin' idiots that pretend to realize the pain and suffering you go through... EVERY day! Like get a life! Then, explain it to me. In the meantime... fuck off!
Sorry for the lanquage!
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Hanna, I've been on suicide watch, too. I just feel so isolated. ALIENATED! Like, who has the power to judge me? I am the master of my emotions... just, who the hell are they? I guess you realize I hate doctors! (grin)
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Worst part of it was me at rockbottom, sitting there on suicide watch by coworkers. I worked in a hospital at the time, and the guard was someone I was friends with.

Humiliating to have someone see you like that.
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Next summer I havbe to transfer PCPs maybe sooner if my pcp doesnt take my soon to be new insurance (I hope)I have Fibro and thats hard enough to get a doc to take you serious... Im afraid once I tell them about all my new meds they will just dismiss everything. Same with going to a pain specialist... I hope in the next month to be looking but to find one to treat me with out my bp in mind scares me. I dont have the strengh for that....

I guess in a good way they were over cautious with you and the idea of cutting... but being BP doesnt mean your a cutter... on the other hand if you were and in denial then it would be sad if it was over looked...

Dunno how the docs should decide when to stop asking and just treat
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wtf!! I mentioned it before but it makes people see me quicker, I think they think I'll hurt them.
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suicide watch is humiliating. i had to have someone sit outside my door, lock my bathroom, every day of the 12 days i was in this last time. i was on 5 minute watches and never graduated to 15. I think its because i am a cutter, but geez louise...in the bathroom...i had a shower curtain (guess i could of strangled myself lol) in in my room, i slept on a box bed...right to the floor, no bureaus or closets...close on the floor. hehehe but i went into the kitchen, broke plastic forks and still did what i needed to do. mostly because i was pissed at staff.
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Calm down they were just doin their job. Iam gratefull they are smart enough to ask you these questions
wouldnt it suck if the next guy who is suicidal slips through the cracks becase someone didnt ask him some important questions
They were doin you a favor
Thanks but iam not suicidal was the right answer maybe somethin in your deamenor alarted them to you watch for these signs maybe you are in trouble. matt
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