I was diagnosed 4 years ago while I was still in high school, while I was hospitalized for the second time with anorexia. Because of the disease, I hurt a lot of people, but I felt excited to meet new people at college. After 3 years here, I had a boyfriend who I fell quickly and passionately in love with and a group of three close girl friends. In the past 6 months or so, I went through a mania which turned into a depression. I had been stable on my meds for about 2 years without any episodes, so this last cycle I was really out of control in so many ways. A few days ago, after a particularly bad episode of crying and shaking and suicidal thinking, my roommates of 3 years and my ex-boyfriend (he broke up with me when things got very bad)have told me they can't do this anymore. In the days since, I have never felt more alone. I've forgotten how much of a disapppointment I feel that I can be. I feel like I'll never have anyone to accept me fully. Anyone have any similar stories or advice on how to get through?
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