I know that I can't kill myself but I just want to die. I can't seem to get any relief. My mind, my heart and my soul ache. I know that I have a lot to be grateful for. Even knowing that makes be feel bad. My boyfriend of 3 years told me tonight that he doesn't want me to love him anymore. I feel like giving up. This is the man that I thought I would be spending the rest of my life with. I just don't get it. I've done EVERYTHING I could to make him happy. I'm just dying on the inside. I don't know how to go on. I have so much drama in my life and than this happens tonight. It's just too much. I don't want to medicate myself and fall asleep just to wake up to the same thing. Man, I'm hurting so bad right now. HELP ANYONE !!!
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