i dont get it, this morning im fine and now i just want to crawl under the covers and never come out again. sometimes i feel like the whole world is caving in on me and there is nothing i can do. ive been doing fine all week and now i just feel this wave of anger and depression. i just wish it would go away. the stress gets to me so bad sometimes. this place has been such a blessing to me but im just tired of pretending to people here at work that everything is ok when its not. i have to fake it to my parents, my friends everybody. except when im here. my parents cant deal with it, my mom usually ends up saying something to make it worse and just make me burst into tears. she never had anyone be affectionate with her so she doesnt know how to be. she just says such hurtful things sometimes when all i need is for her to hug me and tell me it will be ok. well the day is done here, off to the house to put on a smile and pretend all is well. maybe ill do some cleaning and relieve some stress.. wishing all of you a better night
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