I think I'm just having an off day but I thought rather then keeping it in, I'd come here and vent. Sometimes I wonder if my BP is kleeping me from having a normal relationship. I mean for me to have a relationship at all is hard b/c I'm gay. I try to date men and I just can't. I'm never happy when I do. They could be the greatest person and I just can't do it. I'm totally crazy about my ex but we both had issues we need to work on. I don't want to screw it up and it's so hard when I"m having an off day to try and explain it. I don't know if it's b/c I don't exactly know what's going on with myself or what the issue is. Sometimes I feel like I'm totally fine and screw my meds but I can't and I know that. I'd go for a total tail spin. I'm just still really confused about this whole BP thing. I just want to scream. ARGGGGG. Sometimes I just want to sleep my life away. Why is this so confusing or why can't I find people who understand and who will listen? Grrr
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