Sighhhhhhhh...so i am sooo sad right now...I got my first disability check a couple days ago and of course i knew it would be next to nothing barely enough for me to live on... After my rent it leaves me with about $20 to live on every week... So anyways what do i do?... I go to the casino. My irrational hoping that I will win some money so i wont have nothing. When i first got there i did win money but i stayed too long because someone else drove...not that i blame them..its just i have no self control. The casino is the only thing that gives me an escape and peace of mind all the while...stressing me beyond belief if thats even possible. Im tired of letting my husband down...even though he never gets mad... i just feel out of control over my life. Im sick of my bipolar and sick of me...When the doctor gave me a list of symptoms of bipolar and excessive gambling was one of them... i died...because its definitly something i have a problem with....help...please give me some support...does anyone out there have this problem or understand what im going through?!
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