I hate these kinds of posts I swear and here I am writing one, but God I am just so down. I feel like a terrible mom, my career is in the toilet, and my lovelife could not be worse. I am suffering from severe heartbreak, and I am headed to two years to federal 'vacation' for some things I did during a manic episode. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to. My daughter would truly be better off without me I think, and I feel like such a burden to my family. Sorry to ramble but I'm just upset and I'm crying so hard as I type this. Anyway, I don't expect any solutions or one-line pick me ups, just thanks for listening and keeping me in your thoughts and prayers.
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