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I get kicked down, no matter how hard I try.

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Went to pdoc today.....it went well.I like him and I appreciate his cander.
The good news....my lithium levels finally right.
The not so good news.....its official Im a rapid cycler.
No suprize really.Keep it in stride I thought.

After my apt with pdoc I went to work and later my friend told me a couple coworker were ranting on about how its not right that I leave the building over my half hour paid lunch.(I dont get a coffee break either)

I was soooooo angry,then hurt.Why me? I never talk smack about the people I work with.
Why cant people leave me alone?

Ive really got some intense issues(check oct.13ths journal entry for the sum of it)but Im trying so hard to be a mom,a wife and a co worker....and keep it all together.

Im just trying to keep my head above water but I just feel I cant do this sometimes.
I want to quit,my job everthing...why try right?
I just get knocked down anyways.

Can someone tell me they have thought this way?
Can anyone relate?
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yes, but I can't figure out if bp making me feel like this or if its just people who reaaly piss me off
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Yes, I have felt the same way mant times. But a good friend told me that "as long as these people are picking on me, they are leaving one poor soul alone that couldn't handle it"! and you can handle it because you have all of us on your side!! XOXO
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I had to quit work and go on disability because I couldn't handle it anymore with my depression and anxiety. So, I think you're very brave to carry on even though sometimes you just want to walk out the door. No, it isn't fair that people talk about you. But, the normals don't know what they're doing. They have no clue how they're affecting you. Try and remember that. Don't let them drive you out. Hang in there and if you need to talk, I'm here.
peace, t
MrGrub
MrGrub
Do these people know what you're going through? From my experience someone always wants to make out that they have had a tougher life than you and you have no right to feel worse than them. So they slate you behind your back, say you're weak etc. I got that a lot from my old friends... then I dumped them. People aren't all bad, but as much as I'd like to think otherwise, human beings are just dumb animals (myself included). Try and ignore the angry monkeys- it doesn't sound personal. The people involved just sound like they're letting off steam. Try not to worry about- your well being is what matters.
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why did your friend tell you that. Does she know that you suffer from an affective disorder? If she does she either doesn't understand your emotional upheavals or she doesn't care about you. Why couldn't she keep that knowledge to herself considering the news you got from your pdoc?
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everyday, i have lost a lot of jobs due to my bp. Problem is i love to work, i just cannot deal with everyone constantly running their mouths about something they don't understand, and i just get so full of the negativity that i quit. It is one of my main goals to learn to live with. I wish you much luck....
tommymott
tommymott
They're just jealous that they're not rapid cyclers and get extra time off without pay!

To phrase it as kindly as possible: FUCK THEM!
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deleted_user
You are all soooo awesome.....thats just the stuff I need to hear.
I cant tell you how much this means.
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You don't know what "normies" are hiding on their dark sides. They could have worse problems than you and just dissipate their emotions by bad mouthing you. You have the courage to face and deal with your emotions, they don't to me that makes you the winner every time
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I feel that whenever I get ahead or start feeling a litle better something comes along to knock me back down.
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