i don't even know how to say this without sounding like a horrible mother. i was doing great for 3 days, i thought my medicine was leveling out. i wanted to clean today, thats all i wanted to do. i wanted to surprise my husband with a meal and a clean house, but my kids weren't listening to me all morning. they dumped powdered sugar all over the kitchen floor, chase wouldn't stop whining, then at lunch aaron spilled spaghetios all over my newly vaccuumed floor after i told him not to carry them and to sit down. finally when chase refused to eat and started to spit them out i lost it. i took the bowl into the kitchen and whipped it at the sink, spaghetios went flying, the bowl is broken all over the floor, and i went into the bathroom and sobbed. my hands are shaking so bad right now. i'm so sick of this. i thought i was passed this, i thought this part was over! i know the guilt will hit me later, but right now i'm so stressed out i cannot stand it!
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