Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.
and alone. and scared.
i'm tired of hugging myself.
i've lost everything.
i can't sleep or eat or i end up eating too much.
i feel so....unlovable.
useless. plain. ugly. plain ugly.
i want to be u, not me
but then i would just be another me
i can never escape me.
i feel so fucking small.
like a baby butterfly
like a naked little rabbit
left in the cold
like a child forgotten
rejected, labled and stamped
throw away my soul
please
please
before i feel the false hope
of what might be
but never will
i'm tired of hugging myself.
i've lost everything.
i can't sleep or eat or i end up eating too much.
i feel so....unlovable.
useless. plain. ugly. plain ugly.
i want to be u, not me
but then i would just be another me
i can never escape me.
i feel so fucking small.
like a baby butterfly
like a naked little rabbit
left in the cold
like a child forgotten
rejected, labled and stamped
throw away my soul
please
please
before i feel the false hope
of what might be
but never will
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I have been here before, a long long time ago and now I am back.Forgive me for not just saying what I want to say,even under a triple dose of antidepressants it is still raw and seeping and I am hesitant at revealing it as at least under the bandages around my heart I don,t have to look at how raw and wounded.My child was cleaved from my heart by his own actions. my child of ten,turning eleven...
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theatre and I are there already. I'm having a very berry tea with crackers, cheese and cherry tomatoes and she's having a joint with some beer and we're both on really comfy recliners on thick pile carpet. we need some help with the decor if anyone is around??
Don't know why I feel that way. Maybe 'cause I just moved to Houston, I'm in a damned apt and don't have money or a "real" job, I'm on a new med (abilify), my husband is changing jobs, I had to give up my dog and cat when I moved and I miss them and I think Aurora(my kitty) died, now I'm on a new board trying to get to know people, my daughter moved to Washington and we're having flooding rains. WWWAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!
No wonder you feel poorly...you're going thru an awful lot right now...any one of those things can set aperson off...even non-bipolars
Give yourself a break and allow yourself some time to adjust...huggers
wow.
I guess I do have a lot of junk in my life right now.
I still think there could be hope for me though.