Bipolar Disorder Support Group
Bipolar disorder is not just a single disorder, but a category of mood disorders marked by periods of abnormally high energy and euphoria, often accompanied by bouts of clinical depression. This is the place to talk about your experience with bipolar disorder, learn from others' experiences, and find support.

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Got the SSI phone call made...I was freaking out so bad with anxiety the lady asked if I wanted her to finish with my wife. I think she thought I was a freak. Anyway I got an in person appointment on the 20th at 9am. She said they prefer to do appointments on the phone, but I said I would prefer to do it in person so my wife can go with me and help me get through it. So that is what I got.
My pdoc appointment tomarrow got moved to Monday. I am disappointed, I was really looking foward to talking to him tomarrow...now I got wait through the weekend, grrrrr!!!
I wish I knew why I feel like crap. I swear it such a hit and miss thing. I can me feeling like crap when I wake up, the ok for a while in mid morning and then crap at lunch ok around 3pm then crap again my 6...I have heard of rapid cycling...but this is ridiculous.
I hate this crap. I hate how I feel. I hate being dysfunctional. I hate that everything is a struggle that used to be easy.
Sometimes I really wish I could give up!
My pdoc appointment tomarrow got moved to Monday. I am disappointed, I was really looking foward to talking to him tomarrow...now I got wait through the weekend, grrrrr!!!
I wish I knew why I feel like crap. I swear it such a hit and miss thing. I can me feeling like crap when I wake up, the ok for a while in mid morning and then crap at lunch ok around 3pm then crap again my 6...I have heard of rapid cycling...but this is ridiculous.
I hate this crap. I hate how I feel. I hate being dysfunctional. I hate that everything is a struggle that used to be easy.
Sometimes I really wish I could give up!
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I know it has to be rough, but u do have support, and u should keep using it...
love you sweetheart
I'm so sorry to hear that you're having a rough go of it. Rapid cycling is such a bitch, I too can switch moods a few times within a single day sometimes. You can't predict when it's those days are going to be either.
I know it's difficult, but please try to hang on for yourself & your family. Don't give up, & we're here to listen too. Hugs & I hope things turn around for you very soon!
I know that SSI is very daunting. I've gone through the initial process and now in the appeal process. Every time they call I hate it. Half the time I can't remember the answers to the questions.
Be strong, hang in there, and I apologize.
As you and I have talked you know that for well over 10 years I rapid cycled... it was the normal for me so I didnt even know I was doing it. Inbetween I would hit a mixed moment or 2 as well... Now that I look back it really sucks....
This is the way I used to look at it. At least when you rapid cycle your not down or up for to long of a period. Now when I hit a depression I pray that it will go away fast and yet it stays and stays. Its times like that that I actually miss rapid cycleing.
I know its hard to get used to and our meds are suppose to adress it... but honestly if I am not gonna have long periods of stable with some swings here and there then I would actually rather rapid cycle.... I am actually finding these periods of a week to 3 weeks of one mood then swapping to something else and the mixed inbetween very exhausting. Odd to put it that was... you would think that the rapid would be more exhausting
Maybe if you can just look at it in the way that when your depressed it wont last long and neither will the overly manic.... Plus if your meds begin to be affective you can tell right away as you dont have to wait this long ass time til your next mood swing which is god knows when. I think rapid cycleing actually helped me weed out my med attempts a lot faster.
I know we look at our BP and we fell so disfunctional... but if you can just sit back and focus on finding the right treatment (and use counciling if your not) I think you will be ok. I know your willing to do anything to find the right treatment plan for you. That strengh will pull you throught and your family will go with the flow of the moods until it passes....
Dont forget when your down you can isolate cause you will bounce up fast and be back with people in no time... thats anoughter plus of rapid cycling....
hmmm wow I dont think I have read a post yet that pointed out some good things about mood swings lol or at least the speed or lack there of ;p
Hope this gives you a different way to look at what your brain is handing you right now
(((big hugs)))
ok back to bed for me