i have been fellin the same way lately it sucks for a while i feel good then i drop into depression again then i am fine again i absolutely hate when my moods are fuckin with me

I was being sincere here...it appears dirty jokes, who makes you laugh, and drama queens all beat me in importance tonight.

I am getting more depressed by coming here for support, I think I should go now. Priorities seemed skewed tonight and I got a dark place I am going to go hide in now.

some people have better days then others and don't think about those who are suffering in this group sometimes ihave to pull myself thru my depression even tho i know it is going to drag me down again

Woah thomas, hang on buddy. Some of us are listening to Mrtim in bipolar radio, so perhaps the attendance isnt as high as normal. Of course we love and care about you. If you need to talk, please let me know, okies? :)

I think you should read my first journal entry. It might make you feel better about your life. You might identify with some of it. I had somebody tell me that I pretty much described how Bipolar is. It's worth a read, I think.

Tom, no one means to ignore this post,, i'm sure they have no idea it pertained to how ur feeling.. sometimes titles don't appeal instantly, and it gets bumped the hell outta the way...
a lot of ppl care about u here, me being one of them,, and i am very sorry u feel like crap.. i don't even feel like complaining about myself anymore when u tell me what ur going thru,
I know it has to be rough, but u do have support, and u should keep using it...
love you sweetheart

I'm sorry that you are feeling so desperate. Maybe in the morning you can get in to see your doc. Be honest and tell them how desperate you are feeling. In the meantime stay here with us so you can stay focused. We are not taking your feelings lightly, as we have all been there. You are not alone in this. xoxoxo

Thomas,
I'm so sorry to hear that you're having a rough go of it. Rapid cycling is such a bitch, I too can switch moods a few times within a single day sometimes. You can't predict when it's those days are going to be either.

I know it's difficult, but please try to hang on for yourself & your family. Don't give up, & we're here to listen too. Hugs & I hope things turn around for you very soon!

I am sorry that you are having a rough go. I was the one who posted "Dirty Jokes". If I had seen your call for help, I would not have posted it and would have offered you my support. I do apologize. It was not meant to take away from anyone who was hurting or needing some support. I think that most people who had made a call for support would tell you that I was definitely one of those lending it. I am so sorry to have made you feel that way. I will be more careful of the posts in the future.

I know that SSI is very daunting. I've gone through the initial process and now in the appeal process. Every time they call I hate it. Half the time I can't remember the answers to the questions.

Be strong, hang in there, and I apologize.

I hope he checks back with his post. You can't give up man. Only have the life that is present and in front of us to live. Be thankful for the good moments especially if you are cycling. You could be in a hole and it sounds like that is where you are or were going. Sorry about your doc appointment. Do your bets to finalize what you want to express to them over the weekend. Maybe you will find some answers. I hear you loud and clear that things used to easy. They tell me that I look backward too much. Unfortunately that is where the one you want to be is and it doesn't seem right to get rid of that person. I don't know man, keep yor head up. God is with you. Bless

Hi tom... I just poped in while looking for my water bottle. Ive been very physically tired and I think its cause I am emotionally tired.

As you and I have talked you know that for well over 10 years I rapid cycled... it was the normal for me so I didnt even know I was doing it. Inbetween I would hit a mixed moment or 2 as well... Now that I look back it really sucks....

This is the way I used to look at it. At least when you rapid cycle your not down or up for to long of a period. Now when I hit a depression I pray that it will go away fast and yet it stays and stays. Its times like that that I actually miss rapid cycleing.

I know its hard to get used to and our meds are suppose to adress it... but honestly if I am not gonna have long periods of stable with some swings here and there then I would actually rather rapid cycle.... I am actually finding these periods of a week to 3 weeks of one mood then swapping to something else and the mixed inbetween very exhausting. Odd to put it that was... you would think that the rapid would be more exhausting

Maybe if you can just look at it in the way that when your depressed it wont last long and neither will the overly manic.... Plus if your meds begin to be affective you can tell right away as you dont have to wait this long ass time til your next mood swing which is god knows when. I think rapid cycleing actually helped me weed out my med attempts a lot faster.

I know we look at our BP and we fell so disfunctional... but if you can just sit back and focus on finding the right treatment (and use counciling if your not) I think you will be ok. I know your willing to do anything to find the right treatment plan for you. That strengh will pull you throught and your family will go with the flow of the moods until it passes....

Dont forget when your down you can isolate cause you will bounce up fast and be back with people in no time... thats anoughter plus of rapid cycling....

hmmm wow I dont think I have read a post yet that pointed out some good things about mood swings lol or at least the speed or lack there of ;p

Hope this gives you a different way to look at what your brain is handing you right now

(((big hugs)))

ok back to bed for me

this seems to be an exceptionally bad week for everybody in general on DS lately....maybe something to do with Thanksgiving coming up, I don't know....but I do know, when you're not feeling on top of the world, and schedules change all around and you are having to deal with new situations, it tends to make you feel worse...

My life is your life and if you need to talk then by all eans I am here for you.All joking aside!

Hi Thomas. I also HATE the yo yo game. I seem to go for a few days then CRASH....I have taken 10 steps backward! I too am sooooo tired of this beat the Bipolar beast game! One day I'm up and the next day I'm downnnnnn...again. I feel like giving up on my meds....at least when I wasn't taking them I was high or low, now I am a complete yo yo and it's driving me NUTS! My only advice to you my friend is to stay positive and keep on your meds. Hope your feeling more stable today. Love and Prayers Ramona oxxoox

have you noticed that you're feeling like crap before meal times? after meal times, according to your post, you feel better. you might want to log that for a couple of days and see if there's a correlation...