I dont want to think about anything mental health related anymore. I have just spent forever filling out my Disability Living Allowance form online and its depressed me like mad...I had to write down all the problems and how they affect me and medications and doctors and hospital stays...and I realised my life revolves around mental health. It's pretty pathetic. I truly need to get a life...but I seem stuck in this cycle of self harm, suicide attempts, mental health assessments...doctors, social workers, nurses...AAAAAARGH! I need to get myself out of this hole...but how? I have no idea...but this is a really empty, pathetic and frankly tedious way for someone to live. It's not really living. It's just existing. I lost my life a long time ago.
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